Things I Wish You Knew

I’m lying in bed thinking of you. Thinking that maybe if you decide to leave me, that I might be able to find someone like you, or someone better than you. I start to think that maybe I’ll be okay. I’ll be okay without you. I’m trying my hardest to believe that. But, I don’t. I really don’t. I can’t stop thinking about you. Your beautiful blue eyes, and the way they look at me as if I’m the only girl in the world. The way you pull me in when you kiss me. You give me a feeling that ignites in my soul, and makes me crave more every time. I can never forget the first time you told me you loved me. It was less than a year ago. Do you remember that? The look in your eyes, as if you were finally complete. Just by the way you looked at me, it felt as if you finally found your other half. At least, that was the way I felt that night. You inspire me, to become a better person. I can’t forget the ways you challenge me, because you know that I can do better. It’s hard to believe I haven’t known you for very long, yet you have become one of the most important things in my life in just a short amount of time. Love doesn’t have an expiration date. With that being said, I know I will love you forever. I remember the little things. The way you pick me up and lay me down so gently on your bed when you kiss me. I feel my heart ache for your kisses, after you’ve just finished kissing me. I always want more. When we are together, I am myself. You comfort me, and you’ve taught me that true love doesn’t require change. If you’ve fallen in love with someone, you don’t need them to change for you. I know in my heart, that no matter how long or hard I go searching for someone new, I will never be able to find someone who satisfies me as much as you do. You are irreplaceable. So, if you’re reading this.. I want you to know something. You have changed my life. You have changed my outlook on love. You have changed me, for the better. You make me a better person. I have never loved someone as much as I love you. You taught me how to love, how to truly love. And for that, I am forever grateful. If there is ever a time where we are not together, I want you to know that you will always be in my heart. You will stay in my heart until the day I die. I never expected to fall in love. I never wanted to fall in love. I tried to protect my heart for as long as I could, because I didn’t want to risk getting hurt again. As soon as you came into my life, I started to lose that fear of getting hurt. Soon after that, I had no control of falling in love with you. I knew it would only be a matter of time until I could say “I love you”, and mean it with all of my heart and soul. You accept me for who I am. You cherish me, you care about me, you love me. I never thought it would be possible for someone like me to find someone like you. I have given you my heart, and I can’t just simply ask for that back. You own my heart now. If you decide that you no longer want to be apart of my life, I will let you go. But, don’t think for one second that there will be a day that I won’t be there for you. I will. I will always be there for you. If you are ever having a bad day, think to yourself how much you have changed my life. Remember the good times we’ve shared. Remember the love we’ve showed to one another. Remember the words that we’ve exchanged. Don’t ever forget how strongly you once felt for me. Don’t forget about me. Please don’t. I will always love you. I hope you are reading this. Otherwise, these words will never be said to you. I need to let you decide things on your own. I will be here, waiting for that day to come when you’ve finally made your decision. I’ll be waiting. No matter what happens, I will always love you.